It 15 mins into 19/10/08.... I just back from 1 very good frenz's wedding... Guess what came to my mind as I sit at the table with some sec sch frenz??? As I sit there, looking around at all my frenz around me... Suddenly my mind was thinking.... "Wow... Everyone sitting at the same table as me is either married/ROM/getting married..." Which mean I only the guy single at that table... Suddenly got those lonely kind of feeling... It felt so weird... But was trying my best not to show it... If things has gone according to what I used to think, den my marriage will have been roughly these few years... But too bad no gf la... Sometime is like that... When u went around looking for it, u cannot find it... But when u give up, it will just pop up infront of u... Oh btw since I blog on these here, I will like to take the chance to wish all of them happy marriage...
Oh today I proved to myself, I cannot sit too long... COz my back will feel pain... It been like a month or more already... It does seem to get better... Really does not know what is wrong... Den my shoulder on/off pain also make it hard for me... Oh ya it seem like not everyone will grab 2nd chance given to them...
Am I still holding on to the tiny little hope that she will love me back?? I told myself to give up... But somehow once in a while I will out of nothin think of her... Have I fallen to deep in?? Have I lost my ways out?? I just cannot seem to erase her out of my mind... Do I see her as a frenz or more than that?? I cannot ever be sure myself...
Again before I end these entry... I want wish all my frenz "Happy Marriage!! May you all be happy always... And happiness always with you all."
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